akuALUS

too much to take

2012-01-29T04:09:00.002+08:00

Been studying since yesterday. Spent hours just to study for ONE TOPIC. & I got 3 papers to sit for on MONDAY. Crazy? YES. VERY. I've only done BCL so far (purposely left one topic out due to information overload). Currently doing HOM, done with calculations and one chapter. On the second chapter now, trying to remember points. Have one more chapter to go. Need to be done by tonight before sun rises. Sunday will be spent for EHK. Sigh. Another 3 chapters to go. 3 topics & only 5 short answers questions. KILL ME PLEASE.

& I still have another retest on TUESDAY, with PRACTICAL test (I've not done the SOP). I have projects to be completed. Will be staying back after school on Monday just to do project. Seriously, this course is killing me. What to do. Quitting would be a waste. Its gonna make things worst than repeating another module. Seriously.

SIGH SIGH SIGH.

LAW. HOTELS. HOUSEKEEPING. Please be good on Monday. Please let me bullshit through and make sense at the same time. PLEASSSSEEEEE...

Done with complaining and whining. Shall get back to work.

INFORMATION OVERLOAD. NEED EXTERNAL HARDDRIVE FOR MY BRAIN!

Change?

2012-01-27T10:33:00.005+08:00

People change. Some for better or worst, still they change. Some can accept the change, some can't.

Some change for the better after realising their mistake. It may be too late to apologise or regret but a change would be good. Don't you think?

In my case, it was a little too late for me to apologize. So I thought with my new life now, I wanna be a better person. InsyaAllah. This is what we call "lesson learnt".

Unfortunately, there are still people who doesn't seem to understand my main point. Please, if you wanna read, read properly, digest and understand.

Cause apparently, me trying to change on a new year was still considered "wrong". By "SOME".

O.O

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Dadali <3

2012-01-22T17:25:00.002+08:00

Went to expo just to watch Dadali perform. They were all so youuunnnggg! The 20 yrs old was quite cute lah hor.

3 of them auctioned their jackets (woh one sunglasses) for $500, $888 & $550. All for charity. They were at first selling away t-shirts together with albums, also for charity. Because they were amused by the Singaporeans overwhelming response, they decided to auctioned their jackets too! Such nice young men they are.

It was awesome. Had a chance to take a photo with them and asked for autographs. The photo above is what I used. Better than just a normal paper right. Case last resort tu. Hehe.

Okay.. Am at Adam Road now. Time to eat. Byyyeeee.

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Appreciation

2012-01-19T07:56:00.006+08:00

If you can't appreciate what you've got,

then you had better get what you can appreciate.

- George Bernard Shaw

Before I should ask to be appreciated, I should start appreciating. After what I've done what I needed to do, after I've got the answers, the truth (though its dissatisfying), I came to realise that I should start appreciating people around me.

So for now, I will have to really really try my very best to put aside my emotions and negative thoughts and start focusing on what I have right now.

So here's to YOU, YOU, YOU, YOU. Whoever YOU are, who has been helping me throughout my shitty moments. Who was with me and are still with me now. THANK YOU.

& to those who has left (intentionally or unintentionally), who I've left, I appreciate those good times we had. I thank you all for entering my life. For some reasons, we're just not meant together or even friends. But still, THANK YOU.

Let's start our day with a smile.

Good Morning to whoever is reading this. :)

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2012-01-17T23:52:00.001+08:00

and

I tried to not give a fuck but...

I failed.

cause...

and

just wanna be alone.

So I got to

:'(

maybe

2012-01-17T18:12:00.000+08:00

Maybe, this is the reason why. Reason why shit happens.

Did my prayers just now, and I cried immediately after I finished.

Cause the thought of all of us is still on my mind.

Maybe I need to change

I've always been saying that to myself. But I'm still the same old me.

I hate myself sometimes.

I need to make myself invisible.

Dear ngee ann

2012-01-16T21:36:00.001+08:00

Thank you Ngee Ann for the changes you have made to this course. Never thought HLFM could be this hard.

Now that 4 modules are removed, I am more motivated to study (boleh gitu). I hope I can do better this time. No more repeating then I am good to go.

6 months of intership. Is no joke. But it's definitely better than just 2 months. With my result so sucky like this, there ain't no way I will be chosen to go for the 4 months. HAH!

Okay back to reality.

Zulu, better reply me now! Hish.

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Not worth my time

2012-01-15T23:42:00.002+08:00

I wish the same thing.

Whatever it is, I have to realise that people come and go. I need to get use to this.

Start appreciating with what I have right now. Not gonna put too much hope on anyone or anything.

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Awww

2012-01-15T14:55:00.002+08:00

:D:D:D:D:D.

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Frienemies.

2012-01-13T21:12:00.004+08:00

It still hurts. The whole losing friendship thing hurts. I still have problems with moving on.

On a positive note, today marks the Friday the 13th. It also marks the 5th day! :D. Thank you so much for all the 5 days.

Now, I have my love, where is my cat? :P

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FML; Less than 3

2012-01-03T22:50:00.001+08:00

I have been a very happy girl for the past 2 months? Thank YOU. Orang dulu dulu kata, kalau asyik gaduh, nanti jodoh. Eh? We'll see lah hor.

Here's to you, for making me boncet, for making me happy, for always disturbing me, for always making me eat, for making me gain weight, for always making me smile, for making me that strong girl I am now, for teaching me how to love and be loved again.

Apart from all my lovely friends, you are one of those who helped me be the person I am now. HAPPY.

No words can describe what I'm feeling right now. I appreciate every moment spent.

It never crossed my mind that this could really happen. Thank God for this chance that was given to us. May this year be the year for us. InsyaAllah. :D

FML,

Zulu/Zee/Bear/OKB; Less than 3. :D

Updates!

2012-01-03T22:37:00.002+08:00

HELLO! I am back! Its been quite sometime hah? Someone is disappointed I didn't update my blog. Who else if its not Zhe Bearz. Haha.. So now, I'm gonna do a little update from 28 dec - 31 dec/1st Jan aiite! :D

As you all know, I'm a long winded person. Soo... Enjoy the long ride! :D

Vomit-All-Out Session with KitKat

A date with KitKat! Her name's Nurul Syifa'a but I love to call her KitKat. It was a very short meetup and you might think its merepek. Why? Basically all we did was walk and talk. Boring? NO, cause as always, we had a lot to talk and laugh about. How can it be boring? Haha.

So we met at ION Orchard, walked to Far East to have our meal at NanaThai. After which, we walked around FE to look for her new dress. I'm not a shopping kinda person, so I get tired REALLY EASILY. But for her sake, I'm willing to go through all these. Haha.

After shopping, we walked and talked and walked and talked. It was raining, but we didn't care. We took out our umbrella and continued with our "journey". Finally settled down at The Cathay. Bought Gong Cha and chilled. Then? HOME LORH! Simple outing yet awesome! As usual! :D

Ice Skating Double Date; 29 December 2011

YES! This would be my third time coming to this place. Hehe. Had a double date with Arira. :)

Had a hard time teaching Zulu how to skate. Not that I'm a pro, just that I got the hang of it already. Hehe. Even though it was really tiring, I still had a lot of fun! Watching all of them fall while I'm still standing strong was even better!. Hehehe. *Evillaugh*

Just joking. :D

The place was extremely crowded that day, really. Even worst than my first two experience. Really, It was harder to control with all these people and there were a lot of kids! A group of them came and they're like all over the place. Scary you know.

So we had a 2 hours session. It was tiring but someone hasn't got enough of it. We shall go again together one day okay? Haha. After ice skating, we had a smoke break before Ari went off to work. So sad, our double only lasted that long. :( But its okay, at least I get to spend some time with the boy. ^^

We went Marina walked to Shaw House back to Suntec to only end up hanging out at the garden. Spent good quality time, took lots and lots of photos, laughed like there's no tomorrow. Awesome! :D

NEXT!

Syifa turns 18.

Finally my dear KitKat turns 18! Yeah, half legal hor. M18 already. Haha. Celebrated her birthday at Changi Beach. Came early with Hidayah to help out a little. Most of the time, we're like busy barbecuing the food. It was not as fun though cause I didn't get to meet Ain. :(

But with Hidayah with me, I am laughing non stop. She and her stupid acts. Stupid. Really. Tired you know laugh with her. So our intention was to come early, since we're leaving early. But we left at 9 plus instead cause Yaya's dad fetched us. Teehee!

Badly wanted to wait for Ain! But thank god I didn't. She came along with the person who ... Yeah. Good for him. Hope you like it that you didn't have to face me. -__________-"

So yeap! Let's move on to NEW YEAR EVE!!!

NEW YEAR EVE

& FINALLY, the last but not the least, NEW YEAR EVE CELEBRATION. It was the best moment! When was the last time I actually celebrated New Year with someone? & I meant SOMEONE (special). I think NEVER. Of course, Lunatics are my special ones, but I really meant SOMEONE. Okay, I think you get what I mean. :P

I've never felt how its like to be with that special someone on NYE. Never got the chance to. :(. Really. But this year, I did! YEAH YEAH!

Went to have dinner with the boys plus Ira at Seoul Garden, Marina Square. Hanged out outside MS for the fireworks. Fireworks was awesome. Ahhh... Just love that moment really. I felt LOVED all over again. :D

That pic up there? Really fit the moment. 2011 was a hectic year. Too much heartbreak, tears, weight loss, stress. Thank God, I wasn't depressed. Aku masih sioman ohh!!

I thank God for giving us another chance to be friends up to this point right now. Thank you Zulu, for making the end of 2011 a memorable one. May 2012 be a better year for the both of us. InsyaAllah.

Less than 3.

XBOX 360 Kinect

2011-12-26T20:14:00.000+08:00

Here's the new toy at home. Hehee. Ever since we bought this, we've been playing it almost everyday. EVERYDAY. Definitely a good exercise for me. hehe.

Gonna buy more games! Games that my dad and mum can play too. Hehehe.

Another day at Tanjong.

2011-12-11T13:03:00.001+08:00

My whole of Saturday was spent with Lunatics at the Tanjong Beach again. This time, it was a little more relaxing, and we weren't stuck in the rain. & as usual, FUN was always there to accompany us. :)

We played Monopoly Deal, & the game of DAYAK. LOVE the game but I always fail to build the house. Hee.. Had a little surprise for the November babies. Hazimah baked a cake for them. It was AWESOME! Just a little too sweet. Couldn't finish mine. :(. I don't like cakes that much anyways. Hee..

Most of us did our own thing this time. Wanted to join Ayu&Rudy and Iqa&Adi in the water but I felt a little awkward cause I'm the only single one! So I joined in digging the sand with Isk & Jerry. Heee. Some help from Nasrul. Together we made a Sand Bathtub. -___-

Everything went well. We had fun. Oh, thanks Ayu for the listening ears. Felt relieved to finally let out almost everything verbally instead of texting.

Thank You Lunatics. Thank You Allah.
For Everything.

Next beach would be at ECP next Saturday. Can't wait! :)

Now I gots to go get ready. Woots!

heartpain

2011-12-09T23:13:00.006+08:00

i got nothing else to say.

law

2011-12-09T10:33:00.001+08:00

Law is killing me. This sem sucks. Sigh.

I dont know how to study for law really. Sian.

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prayers

2011-12-07T19:20:00.002+08:00

Getting the hang of praying 5 times now. Still have gaps in between though. Sigh.

Like today, I wasn't able to wake up for Subuh. & nenek also didn't wake me up because she knows I slept at 4am. & I skipped Zohor because I fell asleep the moment I reached home all the way till around 6 plus.

I did last minute Asar & I ended exactly when its time for Maghrib. Oh my goodness.

Now Isyak. I always have this habit of.procrastinating that I will tend to totally forget about it. Astarghfirullah halazim.

It has been like 2 years I told myself I wanted to change. But no difference also.. Solat pun macam orang gigi rongak. Too many gaps. Hish.

This is such a random post. Not tryna act like some goody good or something. Or even tryna show off the fact that I prayed. Seriously, there's no point praying if that's really my intention. Lol. I really need to be more disciplined.

Talking about discipline, I'm glad today's paper was doable. Though I didn't revised properly. Alhamdulillah.

For now (excluding this sat), I must be focused on CTs before even thinking about my other plans. Can't wait! Must be patient and focus! Hehe.

Okay bye. :)

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2 hours.

2011-12-07T00:05:00.004+08:00

Initial plan was to spend 2 hours with gemok today. Planned to go for lunch together. Since both are free from 11 plus-2. But we end up spending more time than that.

Cause he was so kind to send me home & then I end up having to accompany him while he waits for Amir & Hadi. So we talked, teased & watched some videos of Maharaja Lawak. But he end up sleeping. For a few seconds. Memang si gemok ni mintak kene plangkong.

Then we headed to BPP to have Gong Cha. Met up with Hadi & Amir and waited for his friend to "repair" his bike.

So while waiting, had a little chitchat with Amir. Damn I miss this senget! So I had my crazy moments. & Amir wouldn't stop calling me gila haha.

After all repairing is done, all of them sent me home (except for his friend). How sweet. Gave them some nagasari. Hope they liked it. Hee.

So that is how my day was today. Heee.

I feel LOVED again. <3

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Clean Up

2011-12-03T10:57:00.000+08:00

So I did a little clean up on my blog. Not much difference. I know. HAHA. Deleted links of blogs that are private and well, deleted. & changed the heading. & & & what else? Guess that's all. Can't find the perfect song to put on my blog just yet. Will change once I found a very nice one. The one that fits my moment right now.

So far today my Saturday was spent waking up as early as 4 am, scrolling through twitter and stuffs. Showering at almost six, prayed and then basically did nothing after that. Oh, I made breakfast for myself and then did nothing. So now, my plan is to study but as usual, I don't know where to start on. Class test's next week. Common Test is week after next. So worried. & I'm having a Sentosa outing 3 days before my first paper. Shit. Pfft.

Let's talk about my life now. My life has been good so far. Other than school problems, I don't have anything else to worry about. Well, a friend was wondering if I've found someone. Well, not really. Yeah, am close with my used-to-be worst enemy now. Love the company. He was there to make me happy, when my Lunatics & Manis are busy. :) Can't say much about it right now. We'll see what happens next. But for sure, he ain't just a Rebound. I will never do such a thing. :D

Well, whether or not I've found someone new is not important. As long as I'm moving on with life, am happy, & getting back to being myself. That's all that matters right?

For now, I can't wait for 10 December for our Sentosa outing & then comes exam. After which, is another outing to be planned out with my Manis. ALSO AKU PEH LAKI. Aku rindu kau juga! :D
<3 you all.
Syukur to be blessed with such friends. Thank Allah for Everything. Amin. :D

school yet again

2011-12-02T10:19:00.001+08:00

In school now. Not doing anything other than doing our own revision. Haiyaaahh. So sleepy.

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i dont care

2011-11-27T01:47:00.000+08:00

YES. I SHALL NOT CARE ANYMORE.

I have been over thinking again these few days. Kept worrying of what people might think if I were to do this and that. But WHAT THE HECK. Who cares what they thinks anyways? They can say whatever they want. I am still gonna move on with life like I should. I am happy now, & I ain't gonna let anything take that away. I'm staying this way.

I DONT LIVE TO PLEASE EVERYONE AROUND ME. Right?

They can hate people I love, they can love people I hate. They can dislike what I do, they can give me advice, but they can't stop me. & if I were to make a mistake, let me be. Let me LEARN from my own mistake. & hopefully I will..

To my closest ones, you know who you are. I just want all of you to be happy for me. That's all.

I miss you all, & I love you all. Thank Allah for this friendship.

I am grateful to have YOU(s) as my friends. <3

& oh, btw. Selamat Tahun Baru Islam. :D

overthinking

2011-11-24T00:41:00.000+08:00

I decided to delete my previous post because I think I overthink already. I am glad to have such understanding friends. I love you all. May this friendship lasts.

Know what? I think I have been really happy these few days that I've gained about 2 or 3 kg? I am 45 kg now. Same for my sis too.. She's 40 kg now! So proud of her. Hopefully I can see more smile in her (though she's really irritating when she's happy). Maybe she gained for the same reason as me. Need 5 more kilos, & you'll be in the Standard Weight category with me okay KAKAK!

Lastly, to ALL my friends who has been there for me, who has been the one pulling me up when I'm down, who has been there to always make me smile. I THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH. Thank Allah.

mistakes

2011-11-22T18:42:00.001+08:00

PLEASE DO IGNORE THE MISTAKES MADE IN MY PREVIOUS POST. THANK YOU. SIMPLY TOO LAZY TO EVEN EDIT THEM.

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Bedmaking

2011-11-22T18:38:00.001+08:00

Today was my bedmaking & towel folding test which I know I'm gonna fail for messiness. Haha. Timing & procedure wise was okay. But I don't know how to make it tight! So.frustrated over this. & to.thi.k that I actually like bedmaking! (hotel way. Not my own bed. That one's just too troublesom).

I can't made a bed with a 3-Star standard. How to become housekeeper? Front line can lah hor? No wait, why rush now? I still have yet to touch Spa & Amenities and also Leisure part of my course, which is more on Shopping Malls. Interesting.

Hopefully school gets better as times goes by. Feeling better about school now even though I failed HOM yet again. Sigh. I ALMOST PASSED! ALMOST! I just need the least a D for this module. PLEASE.

I wanna graduate fast, get a job and pay my parents back! Can't bear to see my dad going in and out of hospitals for many different check-ups. He needs the money. I felt bad for making my parents pay my very long journey of school life. Extra for ITE & for my failed module. I hope I would be able to take all my modules in third year so I can graduate together wuth my friends.

OKAAAYYY.. Post too long already. I'm forever talking about school. -_-.

Okay lah bye...! :):)

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#memories

2011-11-18T17:12:00.001+08:00

So was happily chatting with my mum, & suddenly we were talking about 6 years ago. I was only 13. Haha. Okay, it was such an epic moment. No, not really. I just find it funny now. Mum told me about an incident I don't even remember about! She can even describe the person involved. His height, & looks & age too! Hahaha.

So, after talking about this with my mum, I finally know what really happened. I knew I wasn't involved in anything. It wasn't my intention! Something just happened. & my mum was there to witness. But its okay, not gonna bring back the past.

For those who might have gotten the whole story wrong, well... I actually got nothing to say. No use pointing it out now right? Its not like as if anything can change. Haha.

But seriously, that moment was really a funny one. LOL.

Annoyed.

2011-11-09T14:22:00.002+08:00

EH GIRL. SUMPAH KAU ANNOYING.

DIAM SUDAH.

Busy Bee

2011-10-29T11:47:00.001+08:00

School has kept me busy, just not busy enough. So I've promised myself to start on my work today & continue tomorrow. Shall complete as much as possible. Hopefully at least half of my work loads. Projects, assignments are piling up and I have an upcoming test week after next which means I have to struggle through the notes next week. We're only halfway through chapter 2, My lecturer had no choice but to squeeze that one last chapter during lecture and tutorial. Oh god. Its the module that I had to repeat. Some would say it would be easier since I've learnt it last sem. NO. Its not. There's a reason why I failed. I was so lost in this module so its like a new module all over again. Alhamdulillah, I managed to understand better this time. But I will try my best still.

This sem's modules are a killer. Business & Contract Law, COMISS, SBC, Housekeeping, F&B. Houskeeping ain't that bad so far. Cleaning Loft was hell lot of fun with fun people around. Though I had to join other classes, I managed to blend in a little. For other modules, well they're just as boring as ever. Still getting the hang of law but not SBC. What the shit is the lecturer talking, I don't even know. Even comiss. I don't understand what the teacher wants us to do. Farah has been trying to explain to me, yet I still don't get it. Hish.

Sometimes I wonder if I've made the right choice in choosing this course. I'm only in my second sem and I'm already struggling like hell. So have I made the right choice? Sigh. This just proves how low my level of confidence is. There are times when I feel like changing course. But thinking of what I will put my parents through, I told myself I gotta finish my diploma in my current course no matter how long it's gonna take me. I may need to graduate later but its okay. All I need to do is work hard, get a diploma & a job.

This course ain't so bad actually, looking at the many different types of jobs I can actually apply for. Must think positive.

Okay think my post is too long already. I meant to post about my current life right now but its a little too much into my education life. Whatever. Gotta get back to work.

Till we meet again. :)

Failures

2011-10-21T01:27:00.001+08:00

Today in comiss, my teacher was asking who got what grade for English. She went from A to D & then she said, "don't think there's anyone below D right? Is there?" & guess what? I raised up my hand, & her tone changed when she asked me again.

Well, at first I thought.. Why am I so proud that I got an E8 for English? But on second thought, I wasn't actually proud of it. I was just trying to prove that I am not embarrased of my failures. I failed english, I went to ITE. So? I didn't retake, but I end up in a course with COP of 13. No, I am not tryna boast about this cause I didn't even do well in it, but its really something I never thought I would achieve. 13 points! Seriously? I can even barely get 20 points for O's. Even after minusing off CCA.

What I'm trying to say is, there's nothing to be embarrassed of when you failed something. Don't care about what others are saying about your failures. Well, I have seen one good example where a Person A insults another Person B for her failures. Well, you know what? The truth is, Person A is worst than Person B. A was just lucky at that time. Heh.

So yeahh. :D

So what's new?

2011-10-05T07:26:00.000+08:00

I just realised that in my previous post, I said I went out in the afternoon to have late dinner. Shouldn't it be evening? HAHA. Whatever.

Anyways, I wanted to post something but like usual, I have nothing interesting to say. Well, have not been doing anything much after Raya. Meet my MANIS recently & went out with Yaya & Ain two days ago, wih Shaf joining us after his work ends. I was the one who asked them cause I wanted to buy something. In the end, I didn't get what I wanted to buy. Lol.

So yesterday, I finally started on the drawings I promised mum I would do. I started at 3 & for the whole day, I've only drawn two different type of collars, one basic. In total, only 6 drawings. It wasn't that difficult to draw actually, I just wasted my time by watching Friends With Benefits Series. It's just funny. Gonna continue on my drawings and my shows later.

Thinking if I should go back to sleep or get up, make breakfast & start on my work. Hmmm... I'm only awake this early cause grandma woke me up for Subuh. & I had to do last minute prayers. O.O

Okay, I think I've typedd a little bit too much. Goodbye! :D

Anger-ry

2011-09-25T12:47:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was the first day after so long that I felt really pissed and paranoid. I have veen happy these few days. Well, jut being the crazy me, texting with full of HAHAs & HEHEs. & whatnots. Until... Yesterday.. My sister.. Gosh.

I had to deal with mum's nagging, nenek's non stop questions which doesn't make things better. It'll only make my sister felt worst. *that annoying moment*

I was still happily texting though, until I chatted with this particular person I shall not mention who. It was kind of embarrassing. I dont know why. I dont even know why I'm super pissed with him. What he said to me and all. It wasn't really a bad thing though. I wished I never said anything to anyone. Now I don't feel good keeping his songs after he told me to delete them.

The most annoying part was when he said, "now we're even". I asked him what he meant by that, he just went "nights. Salams." Hish. This particular person has really changed a lot. But whatever.

Things at home are not really as great or as bad. But it sure is not as awesome as it used to be. Every Sunday used to be our family outing day. But now, its either stay at home day or going out with friends day. Even if my parents are going out, it'll be in the afternoon where we'll only be going out to have late dinner.

Oh wells. That's my life so far. Heh. Not looking forward to school. I feel like quitting and change course or something. But it's gonna be troublesomr and all. Don't wanna trouble my parents anymore. I have been a burden in this family. Sigh sigh sigh.

Okay, I'm off to eat now. Heh. Chowz.

its been so long.

2011-09-22T21:48:00.000+08:00

No, I ain't wishing no Raya. Just a summary for Raya 2011. SO. It wasn't that bad but wasn't as good either. But overall its still okay. Collection? Alhamdulillah, my rezeki this year is better than previous year. Syukur. :D

Raya outings with friends (the closest ones) went smoothly. Well, almost. Kinda. Err yeah. So far, not much cock up. Awesome. :)

OKAY THAT'S ALL.

Yes, now its time to talk about work. Finally! Temp job is here. SIM. Hehehe. Working full shift tomorrow, Monday & Tuesday. REZEKI REZEKI REZEKI. Though I don't have overtime this time round, but its okay. 3 days of fulls shifts are enough to to make me smile.... Enough collection to buy new phone. That is if I'm buying. OKAY, OOT.

So yesterday was my first day, had to teach the new ones. Some rules has changed, & it only makes me even more blur. LOL. So much for, "I'VE DONE THIS BEFORE". Haha. Anyways, everything went well so far. Rules are stricter now, guess due to last experience. I guess we're just too slack. Hehe. But overall, its still fun.

Can cuci mata, do own stuff etc. etc. etc.

Speaking of which, didn't see the "Abang Dayak". Lol. So many ECs the last time I worked there. HAHA. Okaayy.. Sememangnya post ni membosankan.

BYE LAH.

teka-teki

2011-09-22T20:00:00.001+08:00

AKU MEMANG SUKA MAIN TEKA-TEKA ORANG-ORANG YANG TAG BLOG AKU.

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missing fun

2011-09-05T11:49:00.000+08:00

What was it that I have been missing?

Oh yes, FUN. Have not been having fun lately. Raya is not even fun enough to begin with. HEH! Holidays been boring with only vacuuming to do at home. No more sewing now. Just simply nothing. Wanted to watch some movies or something, but too lazy to on my laptop. & so much for doing some drawings today. I am stil here, still have yet to shower. Meeting my friend soon! Nevermind shall start tomorrow. I don't have the book anyways. HEH!!

Okay, I am done complaining. Should be grateful that at least, I am meeting Fatin & her crazy boyfriend (sorry marl, nanti aku minta maaf. HEHE) & also Ruzaini. InsyaAllah gerek lah juga kan.

I almost forgot that I am fasting today. Almost wanted to eat. hish!

Huh? Raya? O.O

2011-09-02T00:08:00.000+08:00

It seems like the more I wish, the worst I'll feel. The more I try, the lower my mood is for Raya. I need a Plan B. Just in case things didn't happen the way I hoped. Goodnight.

Best Thing I Never Had.

2011-08-22T13:34:00.004+08:00

I know you want me back. It's time to face the fact that I'm the one that's got away. Lord knows that it would take another place, any time, another world, another life. Thank god I found the good in goodbye.

I used to want you so bad. I'm so through with that. Cause' honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had. & I will always be the best thing you never had. I bet it sucks to be you right now.

- Beyonce Knowles, Best Thing I Never Had

3 pointer? Ahh layaaaann..

2011-08-19T17:23:00.002+08:00

Goodbye 3 pointer. Thank you for accompanying me for the past two years in ITE. Sob sob.

my friends are sweet

2011-08-16T17:26:00.001+08:00

I miss my friends so much. Yes, as what Shafiq calls us now, the MANIS (which is sweets in English)! That explains the photo up there. We need to meet up soon. There are a lot of stories to tell, to share, to catch up!

It hurts when you said that, but it's okay. I know I've said this, I am gonna say it again. The exact same words. To prove to you guys how serious I am.

I can NEVER promise that I will never be friends again with "THEM". You may never know what comes next. But I can assure you guys that I will always pray for this friendship to remain as strong as it is now. We've been through heaven & hell together. Susah senang, we were there for each other. & I don't wanna lose anymore friends, especially not you guys. ♥♥♥♥. 4 hearts for the 4 of you. :D

My dear girl, if you've seen this bench up here, yet still don't know what I'm about to talk about, then I swear you're gonna get it from me! Hahaa.

YES I MISS YOU TOO. I think I should own one of this. So when I miss you, I'll sit here. What do you think? Haha.
We too, need lots of catching up to do. I think my list of things to say to you, is longer than a kid's list for Santa. HAHA. (-____-)"
There's a lot of current stuffs we've yet to share huh! Jumpa soon. After exams, during holidays okay? InsyaAllah.

All the best for your date this Saturday! Pray for the both of you. ;)
Don't care what people say. You're not desperate okay. It's about time already. ♥

ITE

2011-08-12T02:15:00.000+08:00

I miss my ITE life.

Those times I can SLACK and still pass my exams.

Cause life was easy like that.

bad idea.

2011-08-11T15:37:00.001+08:00

Thinking that I should ask you that question was really a bad idea.

Though its just a simple question.

It is still.... a BAD.. IDEA...

Lunatics

2011-08-09T16:51:00.001+08:00

I had tonnes of fun with my all time favourite Lunatics yesterday night. Break fast together at the same time celebrating Faizal's 23rd Birthday.

Faizal obviously doesn't know anything about it (I hope he really doesn't). He thought it was just another break fast session with fellow CI mates.

Had our break fast at Lau Pa Sat after which we proceed to Esplanade to of course, celebrate the man's birthday. I was proud to say that I wasn't that late neither did any of us. Everything went smoothly just like how it was planned.

Surprised Faizal with a ligher from Isk's Galaxy Tab (which is so cool). Then a chocolate cake which he forced each one of us to have a bite. & he literally forced it into our mouth which is super tak senonoh ehh!

After all that, we planned on our Raya outing! I am so excited for it! Hopefully we can get full house! :)

Then. after we're done with everything, we went our separate ways and to home we go.

In the bus, I had a good long talk with Hazimah. She accompanied me to Bangkit and we walked home together until we finally separated. Thanks Hazimah! & Thanks Lunatics for the very fun outing! Hope to meet soon! :):):)

2011-08-06T07:52:00.002+08:00

I AM JUST NOT MYSELF LATELY.

ze good & bad.

2011-08-05T06:24:00.000+08:00

BAD.

I understand what you're trying to do. I understand what you're trying to say. But I wish you would understand me too. It's not as easy as you think. It's easier said than done. I am not holding any grudges for I am done with it. If they are willing to be friends again, with all their heart, & I meant sincerely, I will, accept them too. I'm willing to clean all the mess up and start anew. But I doubt it's ever gonna happen. Cause I've tried once, I failed. So please, don't do it. No. It is for our own sake. Our own friendship, YOUR friendship with THEM, MY friendship with MINE. All these people will be affected, & I will be the middle person again. I have been insulted, blamed, criticized and more. More than you ever thought of. I've had enough. Now that both sides are minding our own business, I suggest we remain this way. Yes, being friends with you was a big risk. I took it anyways. Cause I know, there's no harm to it. Just please, don't involve me in your friendship with them. Just like you said, "dorang, dorang nya hal. Kita, kita nya hal". Same theory applies in this case.

GOOD

Today is officially my first day of fasting. Finally I can feel that its Ramadhan. Finally, I can pray for I've not done it for quite sometime. I told myself, I would pray 5 times a day everyday. (unless I really can't). I am going to do it. I need to be disciplined. This, made me happy. Its kinda weird that I actually missed praying. Its kinda weird that I am getting more & more particular about my food consumption. I still close one eye for some stuffs, but when it comes to restaurants, and stalls, I need to have the HALAL sign, or I rather starve to death. Especially during this Holy month. I've even promised myself not to curse & swear not only during this month, but after that too. No more vulgarities. I wanna be close to Allah. I just need to discipline myself. Hopefully one day, my heart will be open to wear tudung. InsyaAllah.

But for now, let me enjoy myself first & wait for the right time for me to really change. :)

dilemma

2011-08-02T18:25:00.000+08:00

Am I doing the right thing? :/

2011-08-01T02:22:00.001+08:00

I suck at words so much that I took such a long time just to phrase my words, to choose the right word to use for just one sentence. I suck at words so much that I took such a long time to write about something that is so easy.

& when I can't find anything else to write, I get distracted and wasted time. Then I'll be doing something so simple for hours & hours, when it can actually be completed earlier. Sigh.

Now I am stuck doing my simple project that is easy yet so complicated. I wish my course has more maths to it than words. Why did I join this course.

i smiled.

2011-07-29T23:21:00.001+08:00

So I had dinner with a friend who I've been contacting with for quite sometime, but never met. Okay, we've met. but like 2 or 3 times? I felt nervous at first, but once we started talking, it felt like as if we've known each other for so long.

Wednesday, I had dinner with a friend who I've not got a chance to be really friends with. Ahhh kalau faham, faham lah ehh. Kinda weird at first though. But glad things went well now. Pray hard for no more conflicts, I very penat woohh... :)

Both, treated me. Am I lucky or what? Rezeki, tak baik ditolak. :)

Yes, both friends are guys. No, I am not flirting. I am just being friendly. Living my life to the fullest. Enjoying life like I should. ;)

So I would like to thank both of you for the treat & the day. Sending me home & entertaining my unnecessary "craziness" & listening to my never ending stories. See you guys soon!

Kalau ada rezeki, Alus pula belanja korang okay? InsyaAllah. :)

FINAL.

2011-07-29T00:18:00.002+08:00

Today was the final day of my 10 days challenge. But I felt like I've failed to achieve. :(

Thanks to you. Why? You came and asked me that one question I never wished to answer. I don't know if I still do. Even if I did, does it really matter?

Even if I did, will things change?
Even if I did, will things go back to how it used to?

No. I doubt so. So why ask? Why?

So what if I did? What are you gonna do about it?

You got me thinking, you got me crying all over again. For what? Is it worth shedding my tears for this, AGAIN, after smiling, & laughing for the past 9 days. Are you worth my tears? Really?

No, I am not mad. I am disappointed, really. & I still am. How could you be so selfish? What happened that night, was one of the most disappointed nights ever. Thought I could do it, thought it would turn out good. But it didn't. Thanks to you. You used to say I'm selfish whenever I needed your attention. The truth is YOU ARE. You have always been the selfish one.

Ya know what? I'm done. I am glad to have my bitches, my pretty ladies, my friends. They never failed to keep me strong. Without them, I would still be there, looking like a fool. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

Thank you so much to those who has been helping me. :)

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
— Marilyn Monroe

So to you, don't come back to me until you prove me wrong. Until you prove to me you've changed. Otherwise, don't bother.

good & bad day,

2011-07-24T01:55:00.000+08:00

Shot through the heart, & you're to blame. Darling, you give love a bad name.

Today's outing was great cause we had full house! Everyone was there on an impromptu meet up. Everything was cool except for some parts.

I vomited right outside banquet, right after I finished eating. Don't know why. Already had headaches from the start, then the vomit. Went Jurong Park to chill. After which, we went to the Macdonalds. Didn't really wanna spend my money, but then my bitches advised me to eat cause I had empty stomach after the embarrassing incident. So bo pian lahh hor...

Sidetrack: On our way to the Macdonalds, we found a baby bat on the floor, injured. Me, Yaya & Shafiq were the last one to leave because we insist on saving the bat. After much hassle, a Bangla man helped us by plucking a branch from the nearest tree for the bat to hang on, and placed it at the nearest lamp post. So people will be able to see it. Felt really good after that.

Had a stomach ache after eating my food. Don't know why. Thanks to Atiin and Sya for accompanying me to the toilet. So nice of both of you. :):)

Ended the day with lots of laughter. Except for one of them. Its okay dear, we're on the same boat. I got you, you got me. Sekarang kita baru tahu siapa kawan, dan siapa lawan. :) Aku sayang kau. Aku sayang semua!

Okay, I'm too sleepy to type any further. Please DO MIND the whatever GRAMMAR, VOCAB or SPELLING mistakes I made. Goodnight! :)

TIRED.

2011-07-21T22:39:00.001+08:00

EXACTLY WHAT I FEEL LIKE DOING RIGHT NOW.

EXACTLY HOW I WOULD LOOK LIKE IF I REALLY DID IT.

yes, that ugly.

SIGH.

Why, can't I study early? Tried, but nothing goes into my head. Used to be able to work better at night, but now, haprak pun tak ada.Why? Basically because I am too tired & sleepy due to amount of sleep I've been lacking. & also because of the stupid module I had to study for. Double SIGH.

Dear Front Office Management, why are you so ma fan? Why can't you be a little simpler? Same goes to you, Hotel Operations Management. What the hell does MARKETING has to do with the course?! Why do I need to learn EVERYTHING about a HOTEL?! WWWHHHYYYY.....

I can't memorise, or I won't understand anything and also because there are too many words to memorise. Okay, hopefully I have enough common sense to spare for this paper. Shall try to remember some points. Stop complaining lah gila. Gi belajar. Pffft!

sleepily stress

2011-07-20T01:21:00.000+08:00

I am extremely stress for tomorrow's PAC test. The fact that its gonna be way more difficult than the one I did in class. The more I don't feel like studying. I see no point in redoing the question. I already took so much time doing this paper. Haiyah...

I decided to do my HOM report instead. Gosh, this one is another very stressful task to do. Need to complete by tonight actually for my lecturer to check. Haiyahh. Its really easy actually. Really. Just that, I suck at rephrasing words. I really don't know how to do it. Sighs sighs. Why school, why?

I am already feeling very sleepy right now. Feel like skipping lecture again. But I can't. Already skipped BSM lecture yesterday. Haiyoh!! HOW SHUM LIKE THIS! I really wanna sleep liao. :(:(:(

challenge accepted!

2011-07-19T10:36:00.001+08:00

10 days you say, my friend?

10 days I shall give you!

Starting from today, till 28 July.

CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!

♥♥♥♥

so much for...

2011-07-17T04:39:00.000+08:00

you'll think about it.
you confirm plus chop don't wanna break up.
you still love me.

when the truth is, you only care about your bike.
All these while, you've only been loving your bike.
Not me. Nope.

Someone tell my heart

2011-07-13T21:24:00.001+08:00

I deserve better, than you gave me.
I deserve better, and it kills me that I'm holding on.
I need to be strong. let you go.

Someone need to tell my heart. Get it to believe that it's over.

Not Anymore

2011-07-10T13:36:00.003+08:00

This is dedicated to
This, this, this is dedicated to
Mmmmmm, well if your feeling like im feeling, then this is dedicated to you

Well, ive been the super girlfriend
Let you think that nothing bother me
Like when you go out with your friends
And people bring me back the stories
The stories bout them other girls
Bout this one, and that one, and those three
So when i ask a simple question (where were you last night?)
You wanna yell and scream and try to flip it on me

No, no, noooo (no, no)
Is anybody else just fed up?
If you heard it all befoe, foe, foe (foe, foe)
Then right where you are just get up

Somebody say, i dont want it anymore
I dont want it anymore
Somebody say, i dont want it anymore
I dont want it anymore

Cause ive dried my eyes and i realized
I deserve somebody thatll treat me right
Somebody say, i dont want it anymore
I dont want it anymore

Somebody say, i dont want it anymore
I dont want it anymore
Because i know my word so you can keep
That drama, i dont want it anymore
Ooooh, oh, oh oh, not anymore

Mmmmm, no more settling for less
Im looking for that kind of man
Thats gonna give his best, cause im giving my best
A man that wants to cherish this
And knows exactly how to woo me
Not some silly little boy
Who wants my goodies cause he took me to the movies

This is dedicated to(better leave in a day)
This, this, this is dedicated to(wipe the tears from my face)
Mmmmm, well if you feeling like im feeling, then this is dedicted to you (if you feel me say)

aku terjatuh lagi

2011-07-08T00:33:00.002+08:00

aku terjatuh, aku terjatuh lagi di pelukanmu
aku terjatuh, aku terjatuh lagi di pelukanmu

~~ku sadar diri tiada lagi rasa cinta~~
namun diriku tak ingin engkau terluka

sudah ku bilang hapus air mata
cinta ku hilang meninggalkanmu
kamu tlah berbeda setengah gila [tergila-gila]
hidupku terasa, terasa hampa

something to know bout myself.

2011-07-06T19:14:00.002+08:00

Took a Quiz about myself today. Just now, to be accurate. & it really says a lot about me. Those answers are really what first came to my mind. So here goes my answers.

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you
want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Took another quiz from the same link. Something to do with love life or something? & here are the answers.

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

So there you go my answers. :):)
You can try to.
(whoever is reading this)

Decisions.

2011-07-06T19:07:00.001+08:00

As you can see, I am stuck in the middle. Well, somehow. Where I'm planning to go is not exactly where I want to be. I wanted to stay where I am now, just that I think its best if I go the other way. Been thinking hard this morning. & I've thought enough. With the way things are now, I really think its time. Its for the best, for the future.

It has closed. Has really closed. Tight. I am not ready for another one. Maybe not yet. If its meant to be, its meant to be.

The decision I had to make is a hard one. REALLY HARD. But I finally made one. & its confirmed. I did thought of giving it a last try, but NO. If I don't do it now, I am never gonna do it later or ever. Even if I did, its gonna take me another eternity. & I am forever gonna be stuck here, in the middle. The decision I am making, is my FINAL DECISION. I know they would understand. But would you?

give me strength to be strong.

2011-07-05T19:41:00.001+08:00

Was I wrong to believe that we'll go through everything? Was I wrong to believe that we will change for the better? It has been 2 years. 2 years of believing. Nothing seems to change. So what am I supposed to do now? I'm weak in the heart, in the mind. So weak that I can't even think. So weak that I felt like letting go. But then is it worth it? To just let it go and not try?

Was I wrong to compare. To be jealous? Was I wrong to say this relationship sucks? That I am just unlucky? Everyone I talked to kept telling me things will get better. But it didn't. How long am I supposed to wait? 10 years? 20 years?

Yes, I used to have high expectations. But I realised its no use. I have to accept the way things are. But some things do have to change too. & I'm not asking for too much. All I'm asking for is your love, your attention. Money? Yes, it has always been a big problem to us. & you should know why. But you never understood.

Think I've said too much. None of this is ever gonna help.

All I need is the strength to be strong.

school. again. yes.

2011-06-29T22:58:00.000+08:00

Almost gave up on school because of the speed and all. But then again I thought, why complain and get all emotional over school when I can choose to get up on my feet and work hard right?

So while I was emo-ing, I was actually wasting time. Wasting time thinking what should I do first, how to manage time, how to do this how to do that.

I kept thinking I am stupid. Really stupid amongst my friends. I kept thinking I won't survive. If really I am gonna be a failure in Poly, how did I passed three papers (still have yet to get the results for the last paper)? Though it may not be as good, but I tried, & I did it.

So I choose to make this result as a motivation for myself. If I can survive CT, I can survive exam. I just need to work harder.

Though I'm missing a lot of social life, I know I won't regret it. I know its for the best, for my own good.

"Bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian"

never there.

2011-06-19T22:25:00.002+08:00

Soon, I'll be more independent. & that's when I don't need you anymore. Don't you try to find me, or ask me anything. Cause my lips are sealed. PERIOD.

Outta here

2011-06-09T04:12:00.000+08:00

I thought that we were forever. I guess I misunderstood. My fault for thinking you loved me. Or even thinking you ever could.

Get me outta here. Cause my eyes are burning from these silly tears, that you brought when you show me you don't really care. When you never loved me. Someone get me out of this place.

Me & tudung.

2011-06-07T18:56:00.001+08:00

A chinese friend of mine once asked my why I didn't wear tudung. My answer is simple. Look at our generation now, almost everyone follows the west side. True? So I told her, because I choose to wear what I'm comfortable with. I can wear as open as I want to, or I can cover as much as I want to. I already have the intention to wear a tudung, but I'm just not ready yet. Cause I don't wanna be wearing tudung now, and then later I end up being the one who dressed the worst

Wearing tudung now, and be rebellious later is much worst.I have a mutual friend who's like that. The fact that she's only turning 18 this year and already talking about clubs and drinks and suddenly start all those vulgarities? She sound so "wannabe". Seriously? That is worst.

I rather let people see how "sexy" my dressing are now. Let them say what they wanna say. I do know my limits. So what? My parents said nothing about it, what rights do you have then? :)

2011-06-07T00:20:00.001+08:00

BORING, MISERABLE LIFE.

LIFE

2011-06-03T19:03:00.000+08:00

Everything has changed so drastically. Relationship has become more like a friendship. Where you don't contact much anymore. Its so hard to say now. I don't see my point in sharing things with my friends anymore cause nothing's gonna change. They may understand my situation, but they will never understand my feelings. Nobody does, and nobody will.

Can't wait for holidays, but common tests comes first. Yes, school has been a bitch to me. Two of my classmates recently withdrawn from school, & some other classmates were so worried I might be next to drop out. NO NO. I don't go the long way just to quit like that.

I used to be that kid who passed with flying birds in ITE. Now I'm just the opposite. I failed one paper. My friend, who used to be the one not passing, is now the one who did so good. He, who were slacking more than I am, is now studying more than I did. We're just the opposite now & I'm totally disappointed with myself.

I kept trying to study for my common tests, but I kept procrastinating. Now I'm left with only 2 and a half day to study 4 modules that consists 4 to 5 chapters. I am gonna die soon. Really.

I'm hating myself every single day. I'm hating my life every single moment. As usual, so many things kept happening every single day, hours, minutes, SECONDS! Its too much. & NOBODY, NOBODY will ever understand me.

& I am not gonna make it through poly. I'm stupid like that.

Happy Mother's Day! :)

2011-05-08T14:18:00.001+08:00

Happy Mother's Day to all the lovely mothers (excluding those cruel ones. You don't deserve this day!) out there! Especially my Mother.

Selamat Hari Mak Dedek! Thank you so much for EVERYTHING! EVERY THING. I am sorry, I didn't make you proud with my O Level Results. But I am in poly now right? & I will do my best in my studies. I will get good results. I will get my Diploma Cert and make you proud.

I am sorry for making you worry all the time. Everytime I reached home late. I'm sorry I refused to pick up your calls sometimes. I'm sorry for the "white lies". Ooopppss.. Heee..

Whatever it is, you're the best. & I love you very much! :):)

my life so far.

2011-05-06T21:33:00.001+08:00

My life in poly so far was okayy. Lessons are sometimes boring, sometimes fun. Most of the time boring. The best day would definitely be Thursday. Idea Jumpstart and S&W. For S&W, I chose Street Soccer, and I got it. First day was yesterday & it was fun! Can't wait for the next upcoming S&W lessons, so I can learn more about soccer and maybe next time, I can join my ITE classmates for a session of Futsal at Fico. Haha. That, I have to wait till I improve.

Studies so far were okay, ermm, kinda getting the hang of POA but not Building System. Its understandable but yet complicated. Haiyahh.. Needa do more reading. Maybe this weekend. Wait no, ITS A MUST! Gotta continue on my POA homework or I'll forget. Heee..

CCA audition is on this coming Wednesday. Wonder what we're supposed to do during the audition. I hope I'm in. Or am I already in? Heh. IDK. We shall see. Speaking of this Wednesday, I just remembered something. Its Graduation Day! I can't wait!

I really miss my classmates! & Mr Sheikh too! I miss Bestfriend, though our friendship is a little bit weird in so many ways, I still Love you! We rarely meet though we live so near to each other. I miss my Bestfriend in ITE though I see you every Lecture. I miss sitting beside them talking about almost everything that I can talk about! Laugh at their most irritating jokes. Aaaahhhhh!!! I am so gonna borrow sis' camera on that day! Can't wait!

Okay, enough talk. I better get going before *whoever reads my blog* gets bored with all the words. Hehee.. BYEE!

2011-04-21T23:55:00.001+08:00

Finally, FOW is over!!! It was kinda boring though. But who cares, its over now. Heh heh heh. It has only been four days, and I already miss ITE life. Seems like I've got strong competitors in my class. Will I be able to achieve and maintain the same results as in ITE? God knows. But I'll try my best.

Classmates are okay, bond quite well with them. Having my junior as my senior now is not so much of a big deal. But having my junior as my classmate now is a little weird. But so far so good. When I'm with them, I don't feel the age gap so much. Hopefully, they'll be able to help me throughout my 3 years of education.

SO, its confirmed now, that I am in School of Engineering, Built Environment. So no more confusion between SoE & BA. -_______-" Classes are so far away so high up from the bus stop. Imagine having to go uphill everyday. Gosh, how to gain weight. Guess I must eat more.

Shall just leave this hanging like this cause I'm already sleepy. Tomorrow work siaaaa.... Okay Goodnight!

FOW

2011-04-17T12:40:00.000+08:00

Freshmen Orientation Week starts tomorrow! Yeah! Can't wait! Finally, I'm in Polytechnic. I'm glad I chose ITE. Never regretted it. :):)

The sad part is, I'm in a different class as my 'Bestfriend in ITE'. This means, its time to be independent. Time to make more new friends. Time to stick with new friends. It's okay. I'm still looking forward to it. At least we're in the same school and course. Wooohhooooo....

Good news this coming Tuesday! Laptop and pay! Yeah.. Bulan ni, aku penuh dengan rezeki. Sungguh murah sekali rezeki ku, Alhamdulillah. :)

Like A Machine.

2011-04-14T09:23:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna be working like a machine in a factory today. Already am working like that now. One hand taking notes, the other hand scanning. The good thing about having notes, you excercise. But that's also another problem. I AM TOO LAZY TO BRING THE EXCESS NOTES UP. This is if I'm doing class.

For scripts, its the same thing. When sorting, my eyes will stick to the stack of papers checking the index number and the other hand would do the sorting. LIKE A MACHINE. But I love sorting more than class. SLEEPY only..

I am really bored and hungry now actually. Haiyerr..

Can't wait for pay day. I no money already laaaaahhhhh.... Been working long hours, so I hope I earned enough. BIG MONEY BIG MONEY...

Can't wait for school to start too! Hope I didn't make the wrong choice in choosing this course. Hope I get into the same class as Ruzaini. Hope I'll be able to achieve good results. Hope I can get a good job after graduation.

Okay, I'm sleepy and hungry. Faster 10.30 already!

After so long...

2011-04-12T21:43:00.001+08:00

& I'm back now with nothing interesting. Been busy with work lately and small outings. Celebrated 2nd Year Anniversary with love on the 2nd. The almost cock-ed up celebration. Glad it happened still. Phew! Had a great time.

Had a 4E chalet on the 7th & 8th. Which wasn't that bad. Felt a little awkward around them though after so long of not hanging out and contacting them. But it felt good though to have such gatherings. Wish we could have more of these. But too bad I didn't get to meet the other girls cause they left early and I came late. What's with the filling of school forms and all.. Busy busy. Glad I managed to attend still.

Been wanting to hang out with my bitches, but sadly, we're all busy with our own things recently. Most of us will be starting school next week which makes us more busy.. Nevermind, there's always a day. InsyaAllah.

My life has been more peaceful now. No more unnecessary arguments with anyone, not even boyfriend. Hope it'll stay this way. InsyaAllah. Amin.

let it be.

2011-03-22T10:46:00.000+08:00

Just because ONE can't, doesn't mean the rest can't too. Let them decide, you just accept it. If its really a mistake, let them learn from it.

New toy.

2011-03-19T01:56:00.000+08:00

Wow.. Ahh yelah yelah..

Went out again today... Been going out for the whole week this week. Today I brought along my new camera.. It felt so weird cause I'm used to using digital camera.. Haha.
Nothing much today. Just a movie then dinner then walked around town and then home. Ohh, bought a new dress.. Loving it.

New temp job starting on Wednesday. Cant wait.. So bored at home with nothing to do. Still waiting for replies from the jobs I've applied. Still silent till now.. Dang.. Its okay.
Cant wait for 1st April.. Results coming out. Hope I get my first choice. Okay, I'm actually really bored right now. Heh.

Nothing else to say. Bye.

New Gadget..

2011-03-17T23:30:00.000+08:00

Testing... Testing...

Trying out my new gadget... Hehehe...

Been wanting to own this since the first generation.. Now I finally got one for myself. Thanks to Boyfriend for it... I love you..

I learn to ignore.

2011-03-17T11:46:00.003+08:00

Have not been updating for quite sometime huh. Let me just recap some things.

Well, I had great time with my usual bitches. It seems like we spent quite a lot of time the past few weeks. & I love every moment spent with you all. ♥

Anyways, recently, I was called for the KAPAL job at SCC. It was only for two days. A little boring on the first day, but I still find it worth it for quite a high pay. Made friends with Yanie, who is also friends of Sya & Atiin. Awesome time spent talking with her for the whole 2 hours break. Felt like we've known each other for quite some time already. :):):)
Second day was better, though I got scolded by the makcik pendek. She's way shorter than me. -_______-". Longer working hours but at least, I did something more than just standing with a sign. Haha.

Pitied Shaf who needs to report at 3 am & as for sya, she had to work late hours on Monday and end a little later than us on Tuesday. Pity my small girl (yes, I am too as small as her. We're the only short ones amongs us anyways. HAHA)

Yesterday, had an outing with my ladies, Syifa & Ain. Sadly, Lyza couldn't make it. Maybe next time. It was a great time spent, spitting all the bgr problems with each other. Sharing stories, laughters. Brought Ain to MBS since she's never been there. Reached home close to 12. Everything was all worth it. Time spent was little, but well I love it still. YEAH!

As for today, was supposed to have a cycling outing with classmates. But was canceled cause only a few could make it. So I told Boyfriend, & then he planned to meet. Yeah. May today be a better day. :):)

So that's all. Oh, I've been wanting to post this (which explains the title), but I went out of topic. So here it goes.

My bitching moments was way back in Secondary School. & I've long put all those bad moments in the past. I just don't understand why you just can't seem to let go of the past. Pity pity. Tsk tsk tsk.

OBSESSION.

2011-03-09T15:40:00.001+08:00

My new obsession. Small fishes. Recently, me and sisters are so into fishes. These are cheap. $1 only. hehe. But God knows how much we've spent on buying them every time one died. So far I think 5 died. :(

I felt very guilty for "killing" two of my fishes. I just bought two new ones yesterday & one died. Today, I witnessed my platy (right) attacking both my very playful guppies. That explains the separator. I used to have three, one died on the day I bought it. Today, another one died. Left one, with no friend.

I just had to separate them cause my platy is too aggressive! My sis, kept "blaming" me. Yes yes, my fault. Sorry I bought the wrong fish. I thought too many guppies will be too boring. Guess I was wrong. Should have bought more guppies of different colours instead. Its okay, lesson learnt.

I guess I won't be buying anymore for now. Let it be like this. Unless my sis wants to buy one. So yeahhh.

BYE!

Class Chalet

2011-03-03T16:44:00.001+08:00

I must admit, this year's chalet was a little too boring. It wasn't as fun as last year, with everyone always together, gathering, chit chatting. With everyone participating in every games & activities, with no one MIA-ing for no reasons. No one was left behind, no one left the rest behind.

This year's a little bit different. Its just the opposite of what I've mentioned. But overall, its still okay. I was left to be the only girl (excluding Am) for both nights. Had the intention of going home on the second night since everyone's going home and left only a few. But that's also the reason why I stayed. Need help with the cleaning and all. So yeah.

Something happened on the second day, in the morning. A friend was sent to the hospital for some medical reasons. Called the private ambulance & guess who came. No need lah, I tell you okay. Its EDIE JONET/JUNAIDI. Haha! Out of all. Okay back to topic, a friend had some problems in the morning that kinda panicked all of us. Hope he's fine now. Kinda sad to hear the whole truth.

So what else. Hmmm... Nothing much. Because of what happened in the morning, we didn't really continued with our games. Our balloons with the crazy dares inside were left in the chalet. Checked out at around 10 on the last day. Had breakfast with Am, Arshad and Jeremy at Jurong West Teh Tarik.

Thank you so much to Arshad, Shawn, Bernard, Zainul for the fun games. Thank you so much to Jeremy for the ride. He fetched me, Yaya & Zai from home to chalet. & just now, he sent me, Am & Arshad to Jurong. Went our own ways from there. Yuupppzz..

Also thanks to ZackCoco (:P!) & Taufiq Ermanno Rizzo (HAHA!) for the listening ears. Appreciate it so much. Not forgetting Iskandar for the company on both nights & the advises you gave me. Much much much appreciated! Sorry lah tak dapat layan sangat, sebok membakar. Hehe. No worries, I'm free now. HAHA!

That's all. Boring? I K R! Okay bye!

19th.

2011-02-25T10:17:00.001+08:00

For those who wished me be it through text, fb, or live, Thank You so much. Much appreciated. :)

From the start of February, I already told my boyfriend that I'm not gonna be happy on my birthday. I'm not gonna be celebrating my birthday. I'm not gonna have mood for it. Then it really came true. So many things happened to me on the eve, during and after. :(:(

But its okay. I'm glad some still remembers my birthday even though there's no notifications on fb. Thank you so much.

I've only had one celebration so far. My best friend had an impromptu surprise for me. Cause she only asked to meet on the day itself. She made me soooo mad on that day, while looking for her at Plaza. Made me go here and there, playing catching with me. BABI YOU. Hahaha. But its all worth it. Thanks for the bobol, the cake, the Macdonald's. I love them all. Especially your presence. That includes Marl & Atiin. Thank you so much. As for Sya & Shaisen, its okay. Its the thought that counts. To have you with me on the eve & listened to me, giving me advises and all was already good enough, I appreciate it a lot Shaisen. & Sya, the fact that you actually called me up just to wish me was already so sweet of you.. I really appreciate that too. I really thank you BITCHES of mine for being there with me, on the eve, on the day & the last few minutes of my birthday. <3

So on Wednesday, I received a registered mail from an "unknown" person. I saw a packet lying on my bed the moment I stepped into my room. I thought it was from my sisters. Cause that's what they always do. Leave a package on my bed. Hee.. So I quickly opened it up. When I first saw the patterns, the colours, I somehow figured who it was from already. & after some very lame "guessing game" we both had, I finally get my answer. & I was right. Thank You Iskandar Zulkarnain for the baju. I LOVE IT. No, it ain't too big, just nice. You'll see me in it on Saturday okay. Weee.

For family wise, well, I don't expect much from them. I don't even expect anything. But I appreciate the wishes I got from my sisters. Thanks Nenek for the money. She insist I take even though I rejected it. She's not working, she's old, & I'm already too old to receive money from her. So I felt bad for receiving such amount of money. Thank You. But the best gift God gave me was, my dad got discharged on my birthday. How sweet. :)

Get well soon daddy, God knows what's wrong, but I know you're strong. Hey! that rhymes! -_______-"

I love you.

Hmmm.. Enough of my Birthday. Its over. Let's move on with life.

Today is the last day of my attachment, which is also my BestFriend's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HIDAYAH! WEEE. HOPE YOU LIKE THE PRESENT.

OUR birthday this year is a little special to me because for the second time, we bought each other the same thing. Well almost.

I remember buying her a cap from a shop (forgot the name of the shop), a blue colour one. & then I got the same exact cap, which she bought from the same exact shop only in yellow. & this year, she bought me a bolster with ownself customized sarung made by Marl & Atiin while I bought her a customized Pillow with her name on it. I have one too, we can both bring for the chalet okay? See what I mean? We both have the same thinking. Come on, you have to admit that we're cute right? (Puji sendiri nampak!).

This is why our friendship is special, its nothing like the normal bestfriends stuffs outside, its totally different, yet special.

Selamat Ulang Tahun Sayang. :):):)

As for IA, I'm glad its over. It has been a very good & bad experience. Learnt quite a few things. Been through "stress-es" that Engineers went through. Experiencing what its like to be in the Maintenance Team. Ain't that easy dude. Its over now, Phew! Can't wait for Monday to meet up with the rest and share our stories. YEAAHHHH...

I miss you all. SEE YA.

That's all for now. BYE!

Pastamania treat cum Birthday celebration. :)

2011-02-19T08:48:00.001+08:00

My dear cousin, Kakak Aishah randomly text-ed me one day & asked me out for a Movie date cum Birthday celebration. How sweet. So we meet yesterday after work to initially watch Just Go With It. Kakak Noni was there, I think it was a last minute. Haha.

Went to box office, but 2145 show was selling fast. We didn't wanna watch the 2300 show cause Kak Sha got work this morning. Wanted to try Lido, but it was still closed. After discussions, & whatnots, we decided to drop the idea and went to eat instead. So went to Far East Pastamania. Thanks to Yaya, I am now in LOVE with Creamy Chicken. So I ordered that but didn't finished it. Too full. (Talking about it now makes me wanna eat again).

This is the only photo of her Fino that I can find. Heee.

After eating, walked around town. Bought myself a long white tube from F21. Heee. Then at almost 10, we go home. Took Kak Sha's Fino. LIKE FINALLY! Been wanting to ride on it since, since... since... Since I find Fino so cute. Fino was so relaxing, have not been riding on a bike with a box behind for quite a long time. Haha. Went to her house, sleepover. By the time we reached, Obek (her mother) was already out to work.

Woke up at 7 today. Couldn't go back to sleep. Kak Sha has just gone to work 30 mins ago & Obek still haven't balik. So here I am,on the comp, blogging, fb-ing & charging phone, alone in the dark room, in the silent house. Hehee. BYE!

*I hope you're fine daddy. Will visit you later. I love you.

Chingay cum City Alive 2011

2011-02-14T09:21:00.003+08:00

Yaya: Kau hari ini keluar?
Me: Keluar
Yaya: Pergi mana?
Me: City Alive
Yaya: Kau tak cukup alive ke?

The day started off bad. Very bad. To the extend that I cried in my room cause I really couldn't take it. Was really really angry. PLUS hungry. That just made things even worst. Shall not mention what happened. Let's skip. So me & boyfriend went to watch Chingay. I was too short, I couldn't really see. Plus, I was still angry because we had a little tiff while walking towards the Pit Building. (I was super okay when we reached). But something managed to make me a little happy. It was seeing Didi Cazli passing by and listening to his beautiful voice singing to the malay song. Aaaaahhhhhh ♥.

I was really hungry, that I had a gastric. I actually ate a Red Bean bread before when I left home, but it doesn't seem enough to alas perut. It was so bad, I actually went to sit at the back, but only for awhile. Cause don't feel right sitting alone there. Macam loner. So I went back to where boyfriend was. By then, I was feeling better, no more anger. So I gave him a hug, to show that I'm okay.

So after Chingay, went to eat at Mac. Then went on to meet his friends, & then proceed to City Alive.

City Alive was not bad, for my first experience. Dance all night with boyfriend. Boyfriend's first time seeing me dance, like that. Another friend was there too. Happening!

It was my first time. I totally forgot about the "clubbing" part, because, all I was thinking off the whole time was the "street dance" part. I don't know why, I kept thinking there will be some performance by dancers. Bodoh sekejap. So yes, that was my first clubbing experience. Hah!

Nice experience though, seeing different people doing different dances. Some just moved a little, some went extremely crazy, some just went out of their mind, some just shok sendiri, feeling lak tu.

Boyfriend, tak pernah nampak me joget gitu kan? Haha. Not saying I was going wild or my dance was awesome, he just hasn't seen me really dance, going crazy (shouting, singing along, semangat), having fun. Waaahhh hahaha..

As for the rest of the day, well, only we know. :) ♥♥

Al Fatihah.

2011-02-10T17:01:00.000+08:00

First it was my girl who posted about it. Today, I found my LIDO friend talks about him. So I did a little research just to find out another friend talks about him too.

After asking a few questions and a little digging, I found out that the person they were all talking about was someone I worked with before. & from my that very little experience I had working with him, I see him as a very cool, chill, nice, quite good-looking guy. He's fast too. Too fast when he works.

I can't believe he's gone now. I may not know him that well, but it's still sad to only find out about it now & especially the cause of it.

To all bikers out there, please, be careful when you ride. Think of your loved ones. Your life is not only precious to you, but to them too.

Al-Fatihah to Muhammad Nadzir.

please.

2011-02-08T17:43:00.003+08:00

Whatever this is, I really hope it'll end ASAP. The best is, NOW. Please. :(

Happy 22 Month. :)

2011-02-03T16:20:00.000+08:00

So, it was our 22 Month yesterday. WEEE. Went out for a simple lunch, movie and dinner. When we first planned this outing, we didn't really realise that its on our 22nd until, Tuesday. Selenge kan. Haha.

So in the morning, I went to work & as usual did nothing. Go on site also, did nothing. My "in charge" was "amazed" that we came. I thought I heard him say amazed -______-". Guess he didn't expect us to come at all. Heh. Expected to end at around 1. So boyfriend decided to leave home at 12. But in the end, I end too early. Ended work at 11.50, & have no idea what to do or where to go.

So I decided to wait for him at Bugis since Bernard's heading there too & there's a straight bus PLUS that's where we're going anyways. Waited for about 20 minutes for his arrival. I'm very sure he speeds cause I gave him the permission too. Only for yesterday. HEH!

So basically, what we did was just eat lunch at Burger King, watched Love & Other Drugs at Illuma & then early dinner at Macdonald's. Then as usual, we got no other plans, so we sit and think. In the end, we went to Sembawang Park. It rained the moment we reached, & what luck, there's no empty shelter. All occupied. Hish hish. So we decided to just go home. Stayed at home for awhile till the rain stops. It may seem boring, bug God knows how much fun time we had, just by sitting, talking & sharing stories with each other.

WEEEE. I LOVE YOU. Happy 22nd!

Hari Kembar ku.

2011-02-02T09:09:00.000+08:00

Happy 22nd! <3

2011-01-30T17:17:00.002+08:00

Put up the peace sign, put your index down.

tears

2011-01-30T15:48:00.000+08:00

You can't stop me from continuously crying every night.

Cause tears are my best companion at night.

DK0904W; 2W

2011-01-30T01:33:00.006+08:00

Dear Classmates,

I MISS HOW WE USED TO BE LATE FOR SCHOOL.
I MISS HOW WE USED TO SLEEP OUTSIDE OUR CLASS.
I MISS HOW WE USED TO SLEEP IN THE LIBRARY.
I MISS HOW WE USED TO PLAY MONOPOLY DEAL.
I MISS HOW WE USED TO HANG OUT AFTER SCHOOL.
I MISS HOW WE USED TO GO FOR OUR SELF-DECLARED BREAK.

This is for the times in Dover.

I MISS HOW WE USED TO BE SO CRAZY.
I MISS HOW WE USED TO PLAY SOCCER AT THE FIELD.
I MISS HOW WE USED TO BUY CHICKEN BURGER BIG PATTY HOT HOT!
I MISS HOW WE USED TO BUY CHOCOLATES/SNACKS DURING BREAK.
I MISS HOW WE USED TO HAVE BIRTHDAY SURPRISES FOR EACH OTHER.
I MISS HOW WE USED TO GO ALL THE WAY TO HARBOURFRONT JUST TO GET SEATS OR TAKE TWO/THREE BUSES HOME WHEN WE END LATE.

& there are mor to just this, that I miss so much. The main thing is, I miss you all! MEET SOOON!! <3

TGIF

2011-01-28T23:12:00.001+08:00

"Finally its the end of my first month. Alhamdulillah"

Time flies so fast. I'm only left with a month before my March holidays. That's fast huh. This week's just like my first two weeks. Quite slack. Work has been okay so far. Okay no, its quite boring actually when I have no work to do. Today time seems to fly faster than usual. Maybe because I was really busy watching videos of MunaHirzi. They really cracks me up. Hahaha.

People in the office are getting busier & busier each day as each of them has their own datelines to meet. I am proud to say that I've only been late twice in this whole month & that me and partner, Bernard, did a good job in most of our tasks given.

Though I have access cards to MBS, I'm stuck in the office most of the time. & that really disappoints me. We've only been on site for like three or four times. Even that doesn't require us to use our cards. -______-"

Hmm.. Wonder if we'll ever get to use it.

What else.. Let's talk about lunch. Lunch has always been my favourite part of the day. Break from the boredom or tiredness of hard work. But the only thing I hate is, the amount of money I'll be spending in a day. I miss eating in school as they're cheaper. Working life is hard. Macdonalds & KFCs are the cheapest meal I can get. But I had to be fair with Bernard. He eats a lot. So he'll be spending a lot too if we eat fast food. We usually take turns. Sometimes fast food, sometimes food court. Hee.

Okay, next would be POLYTECHNIC. Yes, finally I've decided on my 5 choices. Left with arranging them. That's another hard part. 7 Feb's the application date. Oh no, I'm dead. I hope I won't regret with my decision.

Well I guess that's all for now. :)

I miss boyfriend, I miss bestfriend & good friend, I miss my bitches, I miss my great people (CIs) & not forgetting my classmates. <3

friends forever?

2011-01-24T09:19:00.003+08:00

“Let’s face it, we’ve changed. We’ve all changed. Somewhere between school ending and school starting. We’ve all gone in our own directions. Hearts were broken and friendships were fucked over. New loves started, and new people came into our lives. We no longer hang-out with our circle of friends that we thought that was going to be there for us “forever”. We no longer talk for hours about nothing at all. We’ve all changed. Some for the better and some for the worse.”

Tumblr.

This is so true.

unappreciative much?

2011-01-17T21:10:00.000+08:00

Really?

Cause some people just don't know how to appreciate.

Ya still think its worth it in the end?

I choose to just let it slip.

because I miss US.

2011-01-15T13:02:00.002+08:00

It breaks my heart,

that we're now falling apart.

Things got messier,

our members got lesser.

I wish we could get back again,

like we used to back then.

Now it's 2011,

will it ever happen?

after quite some time...

2011-01-13T09:03:00.001+08:00

Hello people. I am obviously at work right now, basically doing nothing. Well, its still too early. Nobody's in the office now except for me, Bernard, a guy name Firdaus. Nicholas was here just now, but god knows where he went. Its not like as if you know these people, but who cares.

Basically, my office is a MESS! What's with all these floor plans, RIN forms, reports. So many papers!

Oooohhhhkaaayyy.. People are already starting to come in.

ANYWAYS, yeah, so my office is really in a mess. Macam reban ayam. Papers everywhere.

For the past one week I've not been doing much. Last week basically, we did reports. Daily, weekly & service reports which took us less than an hour. As for the rest of the time, we did nothing but read manuals. Sleeepy sehh. We did do some little things like, search for missing RIN forms, learnt about the system, about interlocking. Did some testing on troubleshooting. So yeah. We're supposed to be in MBS, but we're stuck here instead. Access Cards are still in the process.

Lunch has always been the best part & troublesome too. Why? Cause finally we can have a break from sitting too much staring at the laptop. Troublesome because we had to go all the way to Marina Square. JUST FOR LUNCH. & because of that, I had to buy myself bus concession. So yeah.

Been spending so much on food lately. No good no good. Macdonald's & KFC meals are waaaayyy cheaper than foodcourt meals. Gosh. Seriously. But it's the opposite for Bernard though. Hehe..

Hmm... What else.. So yeah, basically I've spent my whole weekend with whole bunch of great people. Saturday to NDP BBQ & Sunday to Ice-Skating with fellow CIs. Sunday was the best! I wish it didn't end so fast. Boooo. Its okay, more outing to come. I hope. Hehee..

So I planned to be a good girl this week. Don't wanna go anywhere on weekends and go home straight after work. But, it didn't happen, cause YESTERDAY, I went to Geylang to meet my great classmates for a dinner & a mini celebration for my great friend Ruzaini. Happy Birthday! :) & today, I might be meeting my cute little girl, Ayda at Lot 1 together with Ayid ♥. That is if he can make it hehe.

I had fun laughing so much with Bestfriend, Yaya ♥♥ last night. Its been quite sometime since we laughed so much. Soooo miss those times.

Sooooo.... I guess I shall end now before more people come in. Its too long already. Hehe. Too much words, too little pictures. Nvm, next time okay!

Stay tuned!

BYE!

Happy New Year.

2011-01-02T20:43:00.000+08:00

(couldn't find a better picture. -_____-")

How was your New Year Celebration/Countdown? Mine wasn't that great. Sad sad.

On the last day of 2010, all I did was, stayed at home, then at around 5 plus, went to Joo Chiat to watch a competition, ate at Teh Tarik & then countdown at home. The good thing is, I don't have to go through the crowds and jams. I was at the early stage of getting a fever so its a good thing I'm home.

Performances that was showed on TV sucks. I used the comp instead. & then got so sleepy, went to sleep at around 1 plus? Yeah.

When I woke up in the morning, I was kinda in a good mood until I checked my FB. Okay, SKIP THAT. At around 8, went to Adams Road for dinner. & I received a bad news.

DAD: Have I told you?

ME: Told me what?

DAD: Have I told you.... that I HATE YOU? (singing).

After 18 freaking years daddy, only now you wanna confess to me this? That you HATED ME? But then again, I gotta thank you cause I get to spend your $10 on Starbucks & Naked Fish French Fries. HAHA!

Speaking of today, went for two weddings to only end up buying Samurai Beef Burger on our way home. Awesome! Haha.

Post too long. BYE!

Happy Birthday.

2010-12-31T12:26:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Nurul Sipak! :P

Sorry I was late, journey was too long.

Sorry I spoiled the day.

Sorry I had to leave early.

I reached home late still. -_______-"

Sorry to say that yesterday, wasn't the best day of my life. :(

KitKat made a birthday celebration at Changi Beach. I would've went earlier if I was alone. But pity Taufiq, so I chose to wait for him. Yaya had decided not to go at the very last minute. We end up leaving Bukit Panjang only at 7. GREAT! I don't blame you Fiq, I understand.

Reached Changi at 9 plus. Crazy. Spent only for less than an hour, then I had to go home. I wish I could stay, but I can't. Sad enough. Let's not talk about what happened. So reached, sang for Syifa, cake cutting, eat, sit for awhile, photo taking sessions. & BOOM. Off to home.

Waited for the bus macam orang bodoh. In the end, we took the cab to Tamp int. Thanks Fiq. Took the train to Paya Lebar & change to Circle Line thinking that it would be faster. But NO, why? Cause the train terminates at Yishun. We already wasted time walking here and there looking for other ways. Cut everything short, in the end I took the cab. Yes, I had to withdraw my money. Sad much. It's okay.

Obviously, I got scolded by my mum otp. Her anger doesn't stay for long, she talked to me nicely once I'm home. Yes, could've reached home earlier I guess if I waited that 4 minutes and take the one to Jurong East instead of thinking that there's still bus, it'll be even better if we didn't change to Circle Line. But its okay. It was a good experience. HEE.

I love these moments where I know I'm gonna get scoldings from parents for being late, & still got the cheek to take my time. I'm sorry I got you worried mum & dad.

HEH.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NURUL SYIFA'A, bila nak 18?! :P

& HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I give up

2010-12-29T21:39:00.002+08:00

♥

2010-12-28T18:52:00.002+08:00

I understand better now, thank you so much Ayu & Rudy! ♥♥♥

I'm sorry.

2010-12-28T17:43:00.001+08:00

I know I've done so many bad things to you. I'm sorry.

I cried so bad yesterday. & FYI, that was just the beginning. Its one of my most embarrassing moments with you. To CRY. That BAD. :(

I've done the talking, I've took the blame, I've apologised.

Till now, I've not heard you say "I FORGIVE YOU". I shall take that as you've not forgiven me.

I hope you will soon. But if you don't, I understand.

Cause maybe I just don't deserve it.

I really want this to end so badly. The list I gave you, I hope you can do something about it. I'm offering a win win situation. You asked for it, I gave you. But from the way you posted your status, it seems like you're not satisfied with it. I am now waiting for your list. I hope we could have another short meeting to really settle this.

I'm sorry.

I hate myself what I have become.

I can't forgive myself for what I have done. Not only to you, but the people around me.

Singing in the rain

2010-12-26T12:47:00.000+08:00

As you can see, I am HAPPY!! Yes, thanks to my ♥ AWESOME PEOPLE! ♥

Never failed to make my day.

Let's play in the rain again! :)

Btw we didn't play Monopoly Deal ehh? Hehe.

11 more days.

2010-12-23T15:01:00.000+08:00

Just 11 more days to Attachment. I don't get to spend my holidays the way I wanted it to be. :'(

only for a moment.

2010-12-23T01:48:00.001+08:00

Just moments ago, I was happy. I was enjoying myself. I smiled, I laughed. But now, I am who I have always been. I am gonna cry myself to sleep tonight. Goodnight. :'(

It was just for a moment. I knew it wouldn't last. This silent war between us, is never gonna end.

Loreal Beauty Sale

2010-12-22T18:56:00.001+08:00

Accompanied my sister this morning for this Sale here at Suntec. Spent so much on just one sale. Total spent, $51 AFTER (2 x $5 off using that voucher above). Out of so many of those stuffs, I can only remember THREE items are MINE. Out of that three, only ONE is totally MINE as the other two are stuffs that I'll be sharing my sisters. Yes. I'm not a shoppaholic. I don't know how to shop. -________-"

We reached early. From only at most 5 customers, to about more than 20 customers. That's how long we spent in there. My sister have a very fickle mind. She can't seem to decide which one she needs and wants, which one she should and shouldn't buy.

After payments are made, we walked around Suntec, and stopped at New Look. Thanks to the salesgirl, who gave us a $10 off coupon for shoes, I had to do another waiting. Sis decided to buy a shoe which took her such a long time to decided which to buy. Can't blame her, if it was me, I bet I'll do the same thing. The heel there are just AWESOME.

Next, we went to buy ourself some food. Too hungry already & ate at the Fountain of Wealth. So we bought Sarpino's Pizza! That coffee, was bought way earlier. Cravings. Haha. The best thing is, sis paid for both. Hehe~

Bought myself a slice of Double Pepperoni. So nice! Feel like eating one more now! YYYYYUUUUUUMMMMMYYYYYY!!!!

sis bought herself a slice of Spicy Chicken something like that. Nice one too! Awesome!

I want more of this pizza!

Once done with food, we proceed to Marina Square. First stop, John Little. Sis made me apply for the membership card cause she lost hers. & if she were to apply again, she'll have to pay. -_________-"

Spent quite sometime in there. I was just following her around cause I'm not interested. Then, we proceed to Watson to buy something for another sis.

Finally, we headed home. Took 960. Slept in the bus. It was great. Now I feel like going somewhere. But I guess not. Done! Enjoyed? Hope so.

*any mistakes in grammar and whatnots, please ignore. Too lazy to even check.

work, bf, misses

2010-12-21T23:07:00.001+08:00

True that.

Okay, I know I've only been posting things from Tumblr. HAHA! Tumblr is so addictive. Yes, kental me. I've only started on it when others already had them for so long. HEH.

Boyfriend's been busy with work lately :(. I don't get to meet him that often though he ends early sometimes DOUBLE :(. We talked (text-ed actually) just now. Had our little discussion. Felt good. We made a deal. Hehe. Looking forward for the day. DON'T DISAPPOINT ME or you'll have to pay back, 24 HOURS EHH!! :):):)

I miss him so much. The most important thing is, I miss US. Those times. Yeah. I guess its just parts and parcels of a relationship. More & more misunderstandings as the days passes by. I really wanna spend time with you and only you. US and only US. Not with your boys, not with my girls. US. Soon. I'm waiting.